Thursday, May 19, 2011

It Gets Better

I am not gay. But as many people who are my friend may have noticed I support gay rights with every fiber of my being. Recently there has been an influx of organizations due to the rise of suicides related to bullying.

These are two I enjoy:

(I was going to post a video here but go to the sites, watch them ALL)

Like I said I am not gay, I wasn't even bullied to the extent of some people I knew. But high school? Something you couldn't PAY me to to do again. Especially now, with things like Facebook. I was bad enough being called a "skank" or "witch" (these were the two favorites) while walking down the street, I can't imagine being in the safety of my house and being bombarded by it then too.

Life after high school? AMAZING. You have the chance to get out of your small town if you choose. You start to do things with your time that YOU want to do. You also start working, which as much as it sucks it better than school. Even my crappy first job at BK Lounge was better than high school.

Something else happens... you meet people like you.

When I was 21 I moved into the Boston area. Suddenly I felt like I could breathe. The people around me didn't care who I was or how strange I thought I was. They didn't know my past, nor did they really care.

I started making new friends & connecting with some old ones. In a few years I had officially left that small town and all it's hate behind me. Like I mentioned, I was not bullied, just made fun of, I never will equal my high school experience to the torture some people went and continue to go through.


These times shape you as a person, they make you feel. Those people you hate so much? It's no lie... high school WILL be the best years of their lives. Which looking back at it now is sad and so very much deserved.

They are assholes.

All the rest of us? There are more of us out in the real world. Hell we RUN the real world. It's pretty great out here.

Monday, May 9, 2011

My Sort of Love Letter to My Chemical Romance

Things I am useless against part one:
Good pop influenced rock music
Boys in eye makeup

I am an epic fangirl. Anyone who has cared to get to know me can tell you this. I love things with all my being and I am very loyal.

My Chemical Romance.

Early 2005 I saw some stories/videos and such and tried to resist. This wasn't something I was supposed to love. I am an adult. I had just entered my 30's this stuff is for angsty kids.

I don't know why I even tried.

As I came to become more entrenched in fandom I realized that these boys were giant dorks. Comics and horror movies. Check. Blissfully aware of their dorkiness OH HELL YES. (also during this time I finally gave in to fanfic, and it is wrong very very wrong)

In the years that follow I have seen MCR 9 times, the last 3 over the last couple of weeks. At the show here in Boston I realized something, that may sound silly but it's true, they make me feel whole.

Teenagers all over the country always yell all over the internet that MCR saved their lives, it's not that for me, since I was already past the point when I needed saving. I am not really sure what band did that for me, maybe none did. But this band was what was missing.

I couldn't tell you what hole they filled. I guess I needed something angry yet supportive? That sounds wrong. I just needed something different. Now I am an "Emo Kid" in my mid-thirties. I always thought I was born too late but maybe I was born to early. But something about this band just does it. I walk of their live shows feeling renewed, craving more and more. While watching them you can feel the energy and joy from both the crowd and the band flow over you, tingling all over your skin. It's like nothing else.

I came here to write sort of a recap of the shows. I got to see them in their homestate this tour, which was awesome (with Thursday, more kickass Jersians). I am already in a bit of withdrawal the kind I only get from a few musicians (Butch Walker is the other, but that is a story for another day). My dear friend Ellevee, who was at 2 of the shows with me, asked which was the best. Honestly, I could not answer. It was all amazing and wonderful and perfect.

And even as I could barely hold my head up on Monday morning I never once told myself I would never do this all again and again (because all of us in the fandom know there will be a fall tour).

this is my favorite off the new album, and this is pretty much exactly what a show of theirs looks like.


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