It Gets Better

I am not gay. But as many people who are my friend may have noticed I support gay rights with every fiber of my being. Recently there has been an influx of organizations due to the rise of suicides related to bullying.

These are two I enjoy:
http://www.itgetsbetter.org/
http://fckh8.com/

(I was going to post a video here but go to the sites, watch them ALL)

Like I said I am not gay, I wasn't even bullied to the extent of some people I knew. But high school? Something you couldn't PAY me to to do again. Especially now, with things like Facebook. I was bad enough being called a "skank" or "witch" (these were the two favorites) while walking down the street, I can't imagine being in the safety of my house and being bombarded by it then too.

Life after high school? AMAZING. You have the chance to get out of your small town if you choose. You start to do things with your time that YOU want to do. You also start working, which as much as it sucks it better than school. Even my crappy first job at BK Lounge was better than high school.

Something else happens... you meet people like you.

When I was 21 I moved into the Boston area. Suddenly I felt like I could breathe. The people around me didn't care who I was or how strange I thought I was. They didn't know my past, nor did they really care.

I started making new friends & connecting with some old ones. In a few years I had officially left that small town and all it's hate behind me. Like I mentioned, I was not bullied, just made fun of, I never will equal my high school experience to the torture some people went and continue to go through.

BUT IT DOES GET BETTER

These times shape you as a person, they make you feel. Those people you hate so much? It's no lie... high school WILL be the best years of their lives. Which looking back at it now is sad and so very much deserved.

They are assholes.

All the rest of us? There are more of us out in the real world. Hell we RUN the real world. It's pretty great out here.

My Sort of Love Letter to My Chemical Romance

Things I am useless against part one:
Good pop influenced rock music
Boys in eye makeup
Dorks
Vampires




I am an epic fangirl. Anyone who has cared to get to know me can tell you this. I love things with all my being and I am very loyal.

My Chemical Romance.

Early 2005 I saw some stories/videos and such and tried to resist. This wasn't something I was supposed to love. I am an adult. I had just entered my 30's this stuff is for angsty kids.

I don't know why I even tried.




As I came to become more entrenched in fandom I realized that these boys were giant dorks. Comics and horror movies. Check. Blissfully aware of their dorkiness OH HELL YES. (also during this time I finally gave in to fanfic, and it is wrong very very wrong)


In the years that follow I have seen MCR 9 times, the last 3 over the last couple of weeks. At the show here in Boston I realized something, that may sound silly but it's true, they make me feel whole.

Teenagers all over the country always yell all over the internet that MCR saved their lives, it's not that for me, since I was already past the point when I needed saving. I am not really sure what band did that for me, maybe none did. But this band was what was missing.

I couldn't tell you what hole they filled. I guess I needed something angry yet supportive? That sounds wrong. I just needed something different. Now I am an "Emo Kid" in my mid-thirties. I always thought I was born too late but maybe I was born to early. But something about this band just does it. I walk of their live shows feeling renewed, craving more and more. While watching them you can feel the energy and joy from both the crowd and the band flow over you, tingling all over your skin. It's like nothing else.

I came here to write sort of a recap of the shows. I got to see them in their homestate this tour, which was awesome (with Thursday, more kickass Jersians). I am already in a bit of withdrawal the kind I only get from a few musicians (Butch Walker is the other, but that is a story for another day). My dear friend Ellevee, who was at 2 of the shows with me, asked which was the best. Honestly, I could not answer. It was all amazing and wonderful and perfect.


And even as I could barely hold my head up on Monday morning I never once told myself I would never do this all again and again (because all of us in the fandom know there will be a fall tour).






this is my favorite off the new album, and this is pretty much exactly what a show of theirs looks like.

30 Days of Music Day Thirty: Your Favorite Song at This Time Last Year: Butch Walker ~ Closer to the Truth and Further From The Sky

This is a cop out



because this is one of my favorite songs always.


AND I AM DONE!!

And this needed to end with Butch

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Nine: A Song From Your Childhood. Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young

I picked this video since it was recorded the year I was born





I remember looking at this one CSN album cover when I was little...






















... I thought they were my parents friends. They LOOKED like my parents friends. This song ALWAYS makes me think of being a kid.

The smell of certain things burning also reminds me of childhood.

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Eight: A Song That Makes You Feel Naughty: Blur ~ Girls and Boys

This was "guilty" but music never makes me feel guilty. So I changed it to "naughty" even though it is equally as silly



I picked this since I am in a Blur mood. Also I stand by the fact that this song if heard in public makes everyone make out.


Play it on a jukebox next time you can and see. I am totally right.

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Six/Seven: A Song You Can/Wish You Could Play On An Instrument: PP Arnold ~ First Cut is the Deepest

I can't play any instruments so I am skipping 26 and going right to 27



I wish I could sing like this.

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Five: A Song That Makes You Laugh: NPH & Fillion ~ A Man's Gotta Do

Everyones Gay Boyfriend and My Future Husband




Honestly? It's the "Balls!" at the end that gets me everytime. Because I am 12.

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Four: A Song That You Want to Play at Your Funeral: My Chemical Romance ~ The End/Dead

duh.

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Three: A Song That You Want to Play at Your Wedding: Concrete Blonde ~ Make Me Cry

I have been trying to not use the same artists over and over but this is one I have to use a recently used artist. Because no matter what anyone says if for some odd reason I get married THIS IS THE ONLY SONG

yep.



This chorus and verse is why...


You're the only one who leaves me warm and satisfied
You're the only one who takes me wrong and makes me right
Oh and if you took your love away
You'd leave me high and dry
Cause baby, you're the only one can make me cry

Lots of people talking at me
Tell me what is right
And lately I just don't know what to do
Ah, the only thing that matters is
If you're with me at night
Everything's all right when I'm with you

30 Days of Music Day Twenty Two: A Song That You Listen To When You’re Sad: The Sundays ~ Wild Horses

I am away for the weekend so I will catch up when I get home.




any version of this song really

30 Days of Music Day Twenty One: A Song That You Listen To When You’re Happy: Manfred Mann ~ Mighty Quinn

I missed yesterday so today I will do two.





Seriously, I love this song. I love this period of music. I love the facial expressions in this video.

What exactly is a "cup of meat"? Wikipedia says it's about basically nothing.

Do I care? No.

Often I will listen to this on an endless loop. Only this version because I sorta hate Bob Dylan.

30 Days of Music Day Twenty: A Song That You Listen to When You’re Angry: Mindless Self Indulgence ~ Stupid MF

I have a "Bad Day" playlist on my iPod. This was one of the first songs on it.





There is really nothing more to say here.

30 Days of Music Day Nineteen: A Song From Your Favorite Album

There are two perfect albums in the world.

1. Concrete Blonde's Bloodletting (1990)



I was at this show, this gave me chills. Hearing it live always does. This album makes me cry so much and I love it as much now as I did as an angsty angry teenager

2. Guns n Roses Appetite for Destruction (1987)



there is one flaw in the album that makes it perfect. Paradise City. Fuck I hate that song. GnR defined my teen years and, with Concrete Blonde, my taste in music. I was lucky enough to see GnR with almost this lineup. It was awesome.



I used live versions of both songs since I think both songs are better this way.

30 Days of Music Day Eighteen: A Song That You Wish You Heard on the Radio: Placebo ~ For What Its Worth

I got a cool new Placebo shirt in the mail today.






I wish Americans liked Placebo. They didn't even do ONE date here for this album. I just don't get it.

30 Days of Music Day Seventeen: A Song That You Hear Often on the Radio: Ke$ha ~ Blow

I don't really listen to the radio much, usually when I leave my iPod at home. But I DO watch MTV every morning as I get ready. They like this video... so do I



The Beek, Unicorns and laser guns!!! What's not to like?

Then there is Ke$ha. She is not very talented, she can't sing very well, pretty much she is terrible. LOVE IT!! Ke$sha is totally a mockery of the music business. She knows it... or someone behind the scenes knows it.

Millions of records later.... the joke is totally on us

30 Days of Music RETURNS Stupid Day Sixteen: a song that you used to love but now hate

So I never finished this meme... lots of people have since started doing it on Facebook and it made me realize I suck and need to just past this stupid Day 16 that I never could and still can't think of a song for.

Against my Gemini Nature I am not a very fickle person. I like what I like and it takes a lot for me not to like whatever that may be.

This brings me to Day Sixteen and my altered version of it. This also brings me to Marilyn Manson.





I discovered Marilyn Manson around 1995. A friend I have since lost contact with showed us misfits hanging in the usual place (the would be the Acton Bickfords) and I was hooked. The songs were AMAZING the image was OUT OF CONTROL and it was all I could possibly want as a weird kid on the brink of being a weird adult.

Years go by, a cover song is released as a single, popularity grows, religious groups picket. I was excited. I remained excited. Manson backed up the image and the songs with brilliant tirades and gave interviews that made everyone think he MIGHT know what the deal is.

Then something happened. First a small show with my loverly friend Miss Banshee. The music sounded great but the cocaine fueled "talk" between songs was awful. I use quotes because I'll be dammed if there were actual words there. Then 2007 the first album after 4 years came out. It was terrible. The songs didn't make sense the interviews came across as babbling tirades. Mason was coming across as a bitter old man. The music scene was changing. The shock wasn't so shocking anymore and the music was tired. After 10+ years it seemed like all Manson cared about was money and drugs.


(March 2011)

So this entry isn't just one song, since I still love all the songs between 1994 and 2003. But the band, who since 2003 has released 2 albums. The last one I didn't even bother to buy. And a person who basically has just become a parody of who they used to be.

Now we have Gaga... who is basically Manson from about 1999 in a tiny little girl package